fiddlehead.....every changing, ever growing

fiddlehead....ever changing, ever growing

Friday, November 18, 2011


Dear sweet girl,
We have started a search.  A search in your birth place to find a birth relative.  I don't know where it will lead, but I do know we must try.    It is possible that we may be left without knowing the answers to your questions.   There is so much we don't know.   One thing I know for sure, we are forever blessed to love you and call you our daughter.   

I have decided to go forward with a birth family search for Tessa through Ethiostork.
There are so many questions that I know Tessa will carry with her.  One's we will never be able to answer for her.
When I ran across this service and saw other adoptive families making connections for their children, I decided it was worth a try.   In my mind the more time that passes, the more likely it is for information to fade.   Tessa is now 2 years and 4 months old.   

After many conversations about the process and a lot of soul searching, ultimately it came down to having answers for Tessa.   Now is the time to try.   I don't know if we will make any connection.  I don't know what answers will come of this.  But I am hopeful something will emerge.
Worst case scenario is that we discover nothing and have lost some $ with a search.  To me, it is a risk worth taking.  Someday in the future I want to be able to tell Tessa that we tried to find out more and accept that facts of what we do know.

The information (names we have, dates, photos, location) has all been sent and the search has been started.  

As I go about my day I wonder about how this search is intiated.   Who is driving to Hossana and is asking the hard questions?  Who is making the connections in the community?  I am so curious about the process.  But mostly I am sending all sorts of love and hope into this process that is happening in our daughter's birth place.
It's all for you sweet girl.


Me. Us. She. said...

We are in the same place. It's rather all consuming isn't it? I hope you find someone/something.

hotflawedmama said...

Prayers for the search!

Thank you for visiting the fiddlehead report!