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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Adoption Update with a heavy heart

It is with a very heavy heart that I update you on our adoption.  Sadly, Tirunesh's referral is not valid due to problems with the dates and paperwork.  These issues all need to be cleared up by the Ethiopian authorities for her referral to move forward and there is no end in sight for when this may occur.  We have come to a place we never expected to be on this roller coaster of adoption and life.    Because of the fact that Tirunesh's referral is not valid we cannot move forward with her adoption.

 Our hearts are hurting for so many reasons, but mostly because we thought Tirunesh would be our daughter.  We are also trying to take comfort in the fact that Tirunesh is not being hurt by our decision.  She did not know us at all or have any bond to us yet.  She will continue to be cared for and her journey to her future family will continue.  We were of course very attached to this child or the idea of this child in our lives.  It is so strange to have an abstract love for someone you have never met.  Not unlike a miscarriage this feels very much like a loss of the child we never knew.

We are making peace with this situation and are continuing to trust God and the universe's plan to bring our daughter into our lives. It is a difficult realization, but now we know that Tirunesh was apart of that journey to our daughter and she will hold a special place in our hearts.  As we look forward we will continue to trust this journey to our sweet girl and re-open our hearts to her referral.  There is absolutely no telling when that will be but we are next on the list for a referral.   

I will keep updates here in a hope to not have to repeat myself over and over, which feels painful to me right now.  Please do send a prayer out to sweet Tirunesh and that her relinquishment is able to be processed.  We also ask you send your love and prayers out to our daughter, who is still unknown to us, and to us to help heal our hearts. 


Cathy said...

So sorry you are going through this. Prayers are with you.

luismendozaburgos said...

My prayers are with you all Jenny. God will help.

Cindy said...

I am so sorry. We will be thinking of you.

Auntie Barb said...

We have a sad heart that Tirunesh will not be joining our family. We hope you will find your joy again soon. We send our love and hugs that your new daughter will be able to arrive soon.

Shannon- said...

ouch. My thoughts and prayers are with you all

Lara said...

I'm so sorry. :( We'll keep you in our thoughts, and I hope you meet your daughter soon. She's already so loved!!!

Tim & Michelle said...

Jen, Not sure what to say! I am so very sorry for this unexpected twist. Know that we are praying not only for you & your family, but for Tirunesh and for the future baby girl Rikkers.
Much Love,

wtbaum said...

Jen,I am not sure why things happen the way they do; however, I do know that you and Andy are strong partners and individuals and will sift through this major "bump in the road." Our thoughts are with you and we know that good things happen to good people.

Cheryl said...

Dear Jeni, Andy and family, I just read your blog and learned of the update. I am so sorry this occurred. Our prayers are with you all and Tirunesh. God bless.


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